Public or Private Doesn't Matter When You're Not Working

On the way in to work this morning I was listening to a discussion on the radio about private sector jobs versus government jobs. According to the gentlemen talking the nation won’t recover from its economic issues until the private sector has the freedom to do what it needs to grow and start hiring people again. There are too many government jobs.

I don’t have a government job but I work for an agency that depends on government money. That has its advantages. Your budget is pretty set in stone so as long as there is not a catastrophe you will get paid. You also don’t work any overtime so your free time is always there. You get to meet a lot of good people and feel like you are helping your community. You might even get to travel every now and then for a conference and free trips are good. All of that is cool as long as you don’t mind not getting raises for a long time or having to take a second job if you can find it. I work with a lot of good people but I wouldn’t say any of them are exactly getting rich.

When it comes to money nothing can compare to a good corporate job. The best thing about corporate jobs are raises and overtime. I’m one of those people that actually wanted people to not show up for work or needed a day off so I could take that time. I once made a killing just by covering shifts for LSU graduates during football season. Money making opportunities don’t come along like that in the non profit world. The benefits are better. The holiday parties are better. There’s usually a few perks here or there if you get in good with management. There’s also room for growth in most private sector jobs. I worked nine hours my first week of the first job I ever had and ended up in management. Mostly everyone at the agency I work for now has the position they are going to have as long as they work there.

If I had to choose the job I wanted for the next twenty years there is no doubt in my mind that it would be a corporate job. I actually agree with conservatives when they promote the value of the private sector. The only problem with the way things are in our country right now is that I had a private sector job that I never would have quit but one day I went in and was giving a pink slip with the rest of my team. I desperately wanted another job just like the one I had but when you are out of work five months and are trying to survive that love for the private sector goes out the window. You apply for everything hoping someone will call and you get back in the game.

I think most Americans just want to be in the game and working. I don’t think too many people care if their job is public or private as long as they can feed their families. If I knew anyone that turned down a government job out of principle even though they had responsibilities and no private sector jobs were available I would call that person a fool to their face. We are in this period where American jobs paid for by America somehow don’t reflect American values. If the political leaders of our country are going to start cutting programs as if there’s no jobs connected to those cuts and leave all of the hard working people affected out on the streets looking for jobs then they better make sure that there are enough private sector jobs to make up for it.

The question I don’t here anyone trying to answer is what happens if we cut all these programs from the budget and give all of the tax cuts to the private sector that they supposedly need to start reinvesting in America but instead of investing they deposit that money and use it to keep their management receiving record bonuses? What are regular citizens supposed to do if our own government is shrunk to the point it can’t help us and the job creators who get all of the tax breaks decide they would rather keep their money to themselves and not help the country grow? Why would Americans no matter what they believe let things go the way they are headed without a plan B?

What I Would Do To Solve The Budget Crisis

I’ve been following the debt ceiling debate and I keep hearing everyone talking about all the spending we are doing as a country. It’s supposed to be trillions of dollars we are kicking out with no regard to the deficit. I’m not saying anyone is lying about that. It’s just confusing because it seems like all I read about is state and local governments cutting everything because they don’t have money. Some governors like Scott Walker in Wisconsin said he had to take away collective bargaining rights from his employees just so cities and programs in his state could fix their budgets. If we have more spending that ever before then why is this necessary?

I broke my rule about not reading comments after reading stories on this topic because I wanted to see what other people were thinking about it. It seems to me like once of the biggest problems we have right now is that almost everybody agrees that we need to fix the problem but no one really knows exactly what we are spending money for. One person thinks we should stop foreign aid. Another person may say stop giving money to support illegal immigrants. Another person may blame the debt on housing subsidies and aid to the poor. The question we have to ask ourselves is that what happens if we cut every program that did any of those things and the debt was still out of control? I’m sure there are many people that think if you cut out these programs it would rescue the country from financial ruin and save their Social Security without any new taxes but I don’t think that’s true.

When Governor Jindal in Louisiana took office he started cutting money to all the social service programs and many in this state were happy but as we are finding out those programs were just a drop in the bucket of the state’s budget and now we have to make harder choices. I think this may also be true in America as a whole because the president can’t be willing to discuss cuts in Medicare and lose his advantage in that argument unless he knows that’s the only way to fix the budget without upsetting the big campaign donors and lobbyist by raising taxes back to where they were before the Bush tax cuts.

I think the solution to this problem is for the public to get a complete breakdown of exactly where our money goes. I know you can go online and probably find that but it needs to be broken down clearly for everyone that doesn’t have the time to do a lot of research can pick up the paper and read it. I'm not talking about a pie chart with general categories like defense and discretionary spending because those are vague enough to be used to fool the public. I'm talking about a program by program dollar amount. I don't think that's an unreasonable request since the future of the country is at stake and we are passing massive debt to our children and grandchildren. I want to know where the money's going so I can tell my grandchildren why grandpa doesn't have Medicare.

We should look at just how much do we spend on farm subsidies, defense contracts, foreign aid, social programs, infrastructure, and everything else that depends on federal dollars. We can throw in there how much money we take in from revenue and how much we miss out on because of tax loopholes and other breaks. Our government should make that public and give everyone two weeks to study it. Then, the leadership in Washington should all get together for a public meeting broadcast in prime time and have a serious discussion about what to cut and how to increase revenue. Having the debate this way with all of the information out in the open would eliminate the rhetoric and divisive tactics.

For all we know the government could be spending more money to build an amphibious drone robot to fight the war on terror than we are on all the social programs put together. We need to make decisions based on all the money we spend and not just the few things that get discussed in the media. Maybe if we did it my way we would find that there's enough money coming in to take care of one another but we are spending it on things that no one in any tax bracket think makes a lot of sense. Maybe there's not enough money but at least after we look at everything and need more revenue people won't think it's going to buy poor people new cars or something silly

If this happened it would bring Americans together for a discussion based on facts and not rhetoric. It would probably end political talking points on both sides. It would straighten up the budget for real and expose the power of lobbyists leading to serious reform that the public would demand to keep this situation from happening again. Since all the good things I just mentioned are the same reasons that the powers behind the scenes would never go for it, I guess I am going to stick with my position based on self preservation like everyone else and say TAX THE RICH! I don’t hate rich people or spend any time worrying about what they have but since we haven’t been giving any options besides taxing them more or destroying our own safety net it leaves me with no choice but to pick the side that's going to benefit me.

If you made it to the end of this I would like to invite you to read this post by Drake. It describes exactly how I feel about this debt ceiling drama.

Sitting On My Porch Part Seventy

A young man who I consider a brother and friend was just became principal of his own school in Mississippi. He’s coming a long way from the rough streets of Uptown New Orleans and daily journeys from Clark High School to the Riverwalk. Congratulations Principal Brister. I’m proud of you. Stay focus and be humble. I wish all my friends had things like this going on.

I consider it a blessing to have such a diverse group of friends and associates. There’s nothing negative about knowing people from all walks of life. I have conservative friends, liberal friends, Black Nationalist friends, and friends that don’t care about any of that. One thing all these people have in command besides knowing me is that I have never had a conversation about the debt ceiling with any of them. Why is this still going on? If the banks were too big to fail doesn’t the debt ceiling have to be lifted on behalf of everybody? Isn’t the country as a whole too big to fail? Why can’t we just raise the debt ceiling and then work out all the other issues while the country still functions?

I would like to welcome Wal Mart to the old Gentilly shopping mall. I still don’t know why residents voted no to Wal Mart the last time but I am glad they are going to finally do something. The Gentilly mall used to have a lot of different stores and businesses in it but it’s been six years since Katrina and I don’t think anyone was coming back. We might as well let Wal Mart and their money come in and do something with the space. At least some of us won’t have to spend ten dollars of gas to drive for a pair of socks anymore.

I have a prediction. In less than three years Twitter will fall apart because all of the people with so much to lose will realize it’s not worth it arguing or sending pictures of themselves to someone sitting at the bus stop. It’s going to take about three more public figures to fall before the domino effect starts. I’ll be retired from blogging by then but will come back just to gloat about how right I was.

The fan reaction to the NFL players because they didn’t vote for the owners’ proposal really baffles me. First of all it was a lockout. The players weren’t trying to get anything extra. The owners opted out of the last deal. Secondly, people act like if the players were to all of a sudden start playing for half of what they do now that would somehow make the owners stop rising ticket prices and beers wouldn’t cost 12 bucks. These are the same people that think if we keep cutting rich people’s taxes they will hire the rest of us. NFL players make a lot of money but it’s nothing compared to what the owners take in. Drew Brees makes a lot of money but it probably equals up to what Tom Benson makes in interest alone for the year. I’ve been watching NFL network almost everyday since this lockout started and haven’t seen an owner catch a touchdown yet. Let the players take a few more days to make sure they are comfortable with the deal. Losing a week of preseason won’t hurt me as a fan.

I’ve been at work all week trying not to catch a case and learning how to work Spotify. Thanks to them I was about to sit at my desk today and listen to the entire EPMD catalog for free. I don’t download too many applications to my work computer but as long as you can listen to all this music for free and I don’t turn on my system to find a virus with some naked lady dancing in the corner of the screen it’s all good.

This is what I was listening to when our accountant and business manager were trying to ask me about an invoice. EPMD saved my job and possible my freedom.

The Window Washing Kid At The Intersection

For the past few weeks at the intersection of Downman Road and Chef Mentuer Highway in New Orleans there’s an old school sight. A young man between the ages of ten and twelve years old is standing out there washing car windows for a few extra dollars at the stop light. The first day I saw him standing in that busy intersection during rush hour traffic I wondered what the hell he was doing out there. You don’t see little boys his age doing that anymore. He’s always clean and neat so I don’t think he’s out there trying to eat or anything like that.

Maybe he’s trying to get some extra money for his school shoes. The shoe peer pressure can be rough at that age so I can understand that. He could be trying to buy a new video game or fresh skateboard so he can roll around like the rest of the young cats I see. Just the fact that he’s trying to earn it made me start giving him my extra dollars and change even though I don’t want washing my windows. As a matter of fact I have seen him collect a lot of money and I haven’t seen him wash a window yet. Last Friday I seen a big dude with redneck tendencies in a truck with oversize tires give him a five dollar bill and he couldn’t even reach the windows of the work truck he was driving.

He’s learning a valuable lesson even though he might be too young to fully understand it. The lesson is that no matter what you look like or where you come from most people respect work ethic. Working hard and doing your best everyday won’t stop you from having problems but it will open the door to other opportunities and keep you out of trouble. I hope he makes enough to get whatever it is he’s out there for because that will be a good positive reinforcement.

What happens to a lot of young black men is they older and gets caught up in what I call twisted dignity. The reason why it’s twisted is that is based on money and not values. We’ll look at a guy washing windows or doing odd jobs to make his money legally as a fool and worship some well paid hustler who’ll shoot our parents if the money is right. We have to reverse that in order to calm some of these kids down and get them to not feel so hopeless about society so they will care about living and in turn will care if the rest of us live or not. Until they start caring our community will never be safe from the violence that goes on now.

I’m a little jaded but the things going on in our society right now and it’s possible the bar for me being encouraged is so low that I am reading too much into that kid standing out there and washing windows. That’s very possible but we live in tough times in a tough city. When I see that kid I think to myself that he won’t make a lot of money but at least he’s not out there at night waiting to stick a gun in my window. That thought makes me wish there was a 1000 more kids like him cleaning windows, cutting grass, washing cars and whatever else they could do to stay out of the cemetery and the penitentiary.

I’m giving that kid a dollar for as long as he’s out there and I catch the red light. I’m trying to hold on to all of the optimism I can.

I Need Football

It might be an understatement to say that so far 2011 has been my best year from an attitude standpoint. I haven’t been a happy person. I thought I had writers block but I realized that I just didn’t feel like posting about 90% of the things going on because all of my opinions kept coming back to “people are stupid”, and “this is a dumb ass idea”. No one wants to blog those conclusions over and over. People get tired of reading negativity all the time. I get tired of feeling it. That’s why I can’t wait until football season starts.

I know the NFL is close to getting their collective bargaining agreement worked out and even though they are the highest level of the best sport in the world I wasn’t just talking about them. I’m ready for pro football, college, high school, little league and any other level in between those. I want to be distracted by something that feels like a life or death situation but it’s really not.

I make no apologies for being totally obsessed with the sport during the season. My daily routine is packed with enough responsibility to make up for the four or five hours of TV and Internet I devote to football once I get home. It takes me back to being a little boy and stuffing towels in the shoulders of my Spiderman pajamas for pads and running touchdowns like George Rogers and Dalton Hilliard through my shotgun double house. That’s where my mind goes when the game is on. I can block out debt ceilings, budget cuts, failed hospital plans, bills, crime, my parents aging, the kids education, levee protection, hurricane season, job security and all the other things that make me want to drink and cuss.

I can’t wait to go to the park around the corner and watch the kids play during the week. I can’t wait to catch a high school game on Friday and hope Clark High School makes it to the playoffs. I can’t wait for SEC football on Saturdays and the week Les Miles calls a triple reverse on fourth down. I can’t wait to watch an Alabama game and wonder what Nick Saban says to those parents to get them to send their sons to play for him without any violations. I can’t wait to see Nebraska in the Big 10. I can’t wait for the prime time game on Saturday Night when Brent Musburger (the greatest announcer ever) says “You are looking live!”

I can’t for the opening Thursday night game when the Saints send Green Bay a message that we won’t go quietly and we want our title back. I’m looking forward to the media still keeping the Brett Favre flame lit until about week 10. I’m ready to enjoy a Bart Scott interview like this one. I’m ready for secret man crush on Troy Polamalu and Ed Reed to continue while wishing they were Saints. I’m ready for Malcolm Jenkins to end my man crush with both of them and make me glad he’s here in New Orleans instead. I’m ready to tell everyone how overrated Matt Ryan is. I’m ready for giving ready Bush one more chance and being one of the few people left on the bandwagon. I’m ready for Drew Brees winning his second MVP and beating Ray Lewis and the Ravens in the Superbowl.

September can’t get here fast enough. I just hope the government isn’t shut down by the time the season starts and there’s no money coming in to cover my paycheck. That situation would put football to a test not seen since Katrina.

Riverfront Fireworks Blog

The feeling of not wanting to be around people can hit me at the wrong times. The latest episode of that came this weekend which is messed up because it’s one of my favorite times of the year. I didn’t do anything Saturday or Sunday because I just didn’t have the energy. I could barely keep my eyes open most of the time while lying on the sofa doing nothing. I felt really lazy and I was upset with myself but I never got up to do anything either. Besides a quick run to Taco Bell I had accepted the fact that Monday was going to end up the same way.

Somehow I got talked into going out to the riverfront and watching the 4th of July fireworks display. I was aggravated when I first got out there because I had to walk three blocks. Once I stopped sweating so much from the walk and got comfortable I took a look around me and checked out my city.

First of all the city always looks great from the riverfront. You almost forget all the drama that lies beyond that. Every demographic was covered. There was a Hispanic family to the right of us. There were a few hippies behind us. On my left were two middle aged white families with matching red white and blue shirts on. Then about 40 people from the hood pushed their way to the bottom of the levee for a good spot and no one told them anything because there are rules to living here. It was almost like waiting for a Mardi Gras parade without the obnoxious tourists.

There was a guy dressed like Uncle Sam walking through the crowd. The Natchez riverboat passed through while the ferry went back and forth. There was an even a second line band that passed through followed by a bunch of people that can’t dance. I felt like I was trapped in a real life episode of Treme. All we needed was Kermit Ruffins playing the Star Spangled Banner on top of Jax Brewery.

Right before the sun went down I looked to my left and could see the Claiborne Bridge. I thought about how from the steps of my Auntie Anna’s house on Tricou Street you could see the entire fireworks display without having to be bothered with all those people and since she’s gone and so is the house there’s no way that’s going to be happening again. That still bums me out and it probably has a lot to do with why sometimes I just tune out the world during holiday times since Katrina started. I’ll stop thinking about that kind of stuff one day.

Despite all my issues and aggravation I was glad that I went. Everybody had a good time and the kids out there really enjoyed themselves. Plus, I have always been into fireworks and the show was cool. I guess hanging out with random local folks isn’t so bad sometimes.

Sitting On My Porch Part Sixty Eight

First Line Charter Schools is taking over my alma mater Joseph S. Clark Senior High School. It will now be the Joseph S. Clark Preparatory High School. If there’s one thing about the city’s culture that has taken a hit it’s the high schools. A lot of the old high school names are gone. I still don’t know why they couldn’t give charters and keep the names of the schools like coming up with some new age name was going to take away any issues the kids were having. Nevertheless I want to thank the folks involved with First Line for keeping the name and the colors. We are coming out better than some of our friends’ old schools.

The first week back from a two week vacation was not supposed to be as hectic as mine was but it’s cool. It’s Friday afternoon and I am finally back into the swing of things. It took me a few days to feel like I wanted to be engaged in anything. I was afraid I wasn’t going to snap out of vacation mode. I guess it’s better late than never. I pulled through just in time for a three day holiday weekend. Since I worked so hard this week I am going to do the right thing and stop working to write this blog.

This is always one of the best weekends to be in New Orleans. It’s Essence Festival weekend and the city is full of beautiful black people. Even if you can’t afford to go to the concerts themselves you can just ride around or go to the Convention Center and do some “sightseeing”. It’s good for the city to get the economic boost as well. The strange part about this year’s event is that right down the street from the Superdome there’s a trial for NOPD officers accused of shooting down innocent people during Hurricane Katrina. While the city collects the African American dollars to send to Baton Rouge, we are waiting to see if justice will be served for our rights being violated. That’s just another complicated situation when you live here.

We had our first named tropical storm of the season this week in Arlene. I wasn’t really worried about her Arlene because I used to work with someone named Arlene and she was really nice. The one I’m worried about is Hurricane Gert if it makes it close to land. Gert sounds like one of the guys who used to walk around trying to steal other people’s shoes in the 7th grade. Don’t mess with anybody named Gert.

If the Jefferson Parish sheriffs can shoot coyotes why can’t the New Orleans sheriffs come out to my house and help me deal with the raccoons?

I read a story about Wal Mart and some developers bringing back the Gentilly Shopping Mall which isn’t far from my house. There’s a line at the end of this article that got my attention.

“Neighbors at the time balked at a $15.9 million proposal by Wal-Mart to open a big-box store at the site. While the project would have limited the public's risk and quickly jump-started commercial activity, residents said they wanted a retail mix.”

What retail mix were they looking for? We already got a Simply Fashion, a Rent A Center and a Beauty Supply store in the other new development across the street. What high end stores are you holding out for? Let these people spend this money before we end up with the biggest Family Dollar store in America.

The NBA lockout has started and is going to combine with the NFL lockout to send the sports junkie inside of me into full panic mode. You know the NBA lockout is going to be rough because while the NFL keeps promoting their league like everything is okay, the NBA damn near shut their website down and took all the pictures of players off it. They are going all in on the lockout. The NBA players are not going to get a lot of sympathy from fans and they have people like Stephan Marbury to blame. He hasn’t played a game since I was two shirt sizes smaller and still collecting checks.

My good friend and great blogger Beauty Jackson wrote an article about African Americans in the media. You should check that out.

The Riding Tide conference is coming soon and you can still register. I just want to let everyone know that despite the fact I received the Ashley Morris Award they still make me pay full price. There's no need to call Lee Zurich. There are no hookups in the blogging community.

Essence Festival tickets are getting higher and higher. I thought they would go down a little since black America has something close to 16% unemployment. I guess the ones that are working are doing pretty well. I’m still trying to decide on if I want to come out of my pocket and pay for tickets. If I do decide to pay to get in it will be only to see New Edition with the hope that Bobby Brown is there. I keep thinking he’s not going to be and I have already seen the group without him. He’s on the Essence poster so I figure if I pay and he’s not there I should be able to get a partial refund...............and if you ain't down with the great Bobby Brown you need to question everything about entire life. He's the king of R&B!

Reveal the Real Secrets

I was thinking about buying my former mayor Ray Nagin’s book. The title pulled me in. There are some secrets from Katrina that I wouldn’t mind knowing but I haven’t gotten the book because I don’t think they are in there. I have been checking out the excerpts from the book and all I see are things about the former Governor Blanco and Michael Brown. I know he has a lot of things in there about what it was like to be in charge of the city at the time of the storm and the pressure of that. I also think he probably has a few things in there that speak to the race and class divisions in our and are probably true but since he has such low creditably many are going to dismiss them as just Ray talking crazy. Unless you are in denial or just not paying attention many of those issues are obvious too so I don’t need to spend eighteen bucks on the mayor’s book just to fill me in on what I already know.

What I was hoping Ray Nagin would give me from his book was some of the things that we talk about behind close doors but don’t know for sure. I was hoping he could clear up some of the conspiracy theories. For instance, I would like to know who was in that meeting in Dallas when they talked to him about who was going to come back to the city. If that meeting really happened the mayor should name each and every person and what business they run. That way I could start boycotting those people now. It’s not too late for that. I would like to know was the Lower Ninth Ward really going to be cleared to build a resort? I never thought this one was true but if it is I would like to know who was going to invest in that.

I would like to know what exactly did the mayor agree to before the Bring Back New Orleans commission released their plan and got everyone riled up. There’s no way those folks made that plan public without thinking the mayor was going to put his stamp of approval on it. If I am right about that I would like to know who or what changed Mayor Nagin’s mind and made him keep the entire city open brought so much heat on himself. That would be some eye opening reading. Other than that I don’t want to read about any new Katrina stories that are just similar stories to the ones we already lived through ourselves. If Ray Nagin wants me to spend money on that book he needs to expose all the things that went on behind the scenes that the media didn’t cover. If he’s not doing that then I am spending that book money on gasoline to get to work.

Life Expectancy Issues

According to an article on the front page of the Times Picayune this morning, men in New Orleans have one of the lowest life expectancies in the country. We needed one more thing to worry about. I guess if we need a silver lining we can take pride in the fact that we don’t have the lowest life expectancy. That title goes to Holmes County, Mississippi. I don’t know what’s going on around there but I won’t be heading that way if we have to evacuate for a storm. I got enough trouble.

While we are living to an average of 68 years our women are living to an average of 79 years old. That means that not only will we only get to enjoy a few years of retirement but our women will be using the rest of our money to have fun and meet guys who are still living at bingo games. This might be the first thing that makes me support raising the retirement age to 70.

If they raise it and the averages hold up I can probably work until I pass out from a combination of stress, pickled pork, brown liquor and Zatarain’s Crab Boil seasoning. I’ll be headed to the big BBQ in the sky with all my boys who didn’t go to the doctor. It’s sad to admit but we don’t really start cutting back on things until they have already made us sick. If we cut back a little and pay more attention I know we can add at two years on the average and get us up to 70.

There will never be a more authentic New Orleans man as my grandfather was. He was made of this city in and out and he lived to be 89. It’s not like he was a health nut or anything either because in his heyday because his close friends and associates called him “Heavy”. I think if was still here now and I asked him about this article he would probably say that to way to live a long time is to try and relax as much as you can when you are not working, start going to the doctor for checkups or when things don’t feel right, and by all means avoid being hit by bullets.

I think if we start going to the doctor and being more responsible while the youngsters avoid bullets and start living longer we can push our average to 75 and actually be around to enjoy our retirement. If we just keep eating and drinking everything without moderation and the bullets keep flying we will be giving Holmes County a run for the top spot and once again be at the wrong end of another list.

Happy Father's Day

At last year’s Rising Tide Conference I brought my little brother from the mentoring program to hang out with me and to show him another side to life. I think he had a good time despite being 10 years old and full of energy. Sitting around all day listening to people speak usually isn’t the greatest thing for his demographic but I think he got the point. He won’t be hanging out with me this year because his dad was released from prison a few months ago and now he’s living with him and they are working on their relationship. I met his dad the night I came and picked him to go the Monday Night Raw. He seemed to be a little nervous at the time but I told him he had to give his daddy a chance. I tried to explain to him that his dad was going to need to get comfortable and then things would work out.

I get calls from his grandmother giving me updates on him and apparently things are coming along fine. She thanks me for being there for him. I always tell her it was my pleasure because I know how important it is to have a male influence. I had a great one. I even had a few more for extra measure. I made out alright in the family department. Hopefully his dad keeps things together and can share with him all the things he needs to know to avoid the obstacles as well as he can and have a better and easier life than his dad and I do. You can’t guarantee everything is going to work out but our job is to try and make the process as smooth as possible.

That’s what my dad tried to do for me and his kids. That’s what I try to do for mine. Happy Father’s Day to my dad, Christian’s dad and all the other dads trying to do their best to keep things together.

Sitting On My Porch Part Sixty Seven

Vacation is the bomb. I have no idea why I don’t stay home more often but I am going to. I really don’t want to work at all. I think it would be great just to sit here all day and start cocktails at noon. That’s the way my life is headed as soon as I figure out how to replace my paycheck.

I don’t want anyone to worry about me becoming a slacker who expects the government to take care of him. I won’t quit my job until I find a bag of money or win the lottery. That way Americans don’t have to worry about feeding my family and adding to the deficit. I know the Republican Leadership Conference is in town and they wouldn’t take too kindly to the anti American behavior of needing help. I want to tell all of my elected leaders know that I will do my part to pay all of my bills no matter how much they rise for no reason and never expect anything.

It took years to come to the realization that the constant struggle to maintain financially was going to be part of my life forever. I tried to resist it and speak out on it but the evidence was overwhelming. I live in a broke city, a broke state and a broke country. In all three of those levels there are citizens that are the angriest at the people on the bottom who have the least like that’s where we spend all the money. Even after we cut what they get the deficit gets higher and people still blame them. I figure since that’s what everyone thinks and since the president kept most of the policies in place from the guy before him, nothing is going to change anytime soon and I need to be mentally prepared. Why should I drive myself crazy being frustrated? I might as well suck it up and get prepared for the day my job is eliminated by a budget cut.

The sooner everyone accepts this is the quicker we can focus all of our attention on something really important like the NFL lockout and the potential cancellation of the Saints and Packers Thursday night opening game extravaganza. I’m calling it the Small Market Champions Showdown. They need to get this deal done. A lot of fans have sided with the owners since the lockout. We’ll see how you feel when tickets, parking, and concessions still go up because they all want to “stay competitive”.

I wasn’t going to talk about Anthony Weiner but I can’t help myself since he stepped down. I know a little bit about doing dumb guy things. I have a few dumb things on my resume when it comes to women. When it’s all said and done I think he has to go down in history as one of the dumbest guys ever because he ruined a career without even actually touching a woman. Anthony Weiner shows what can happen when man works out too much and starts feeling himself. He should have left the P90X alone and stayed off the internet.

There was a time when Congressman Weiner could have gotten away with the stuff he was doing. The internet used to be a lot more taboo and not everyone had access to it. You could probably find a few “friends” and send them pictures of you getting out of the shower if you could figure out how to save them to your desktop with Windows 98. These days things are different. I can access anything in the world from my phone. We have stuff like Facebook, Twitter, and Google. Now when I go to YouTube it asks me if I want to click on all the pages from my Gmail contacts. My Flickr account is attached to my Yahoo ID and if you don’t make your pictures private the whole world can see them whether I want them to or not. I know so much more about my friends and family thanks to Twitter and Facebook that I am anticipating a day where there’s a pushback to them after breaking up so many relationships that people stop logging in to their sites in record numbers and start a recession. The internet is the last place a congressman should be living out his wild side so for that he goes to the main room of the dumb guy hall of fame. He doesn’t get the top spot however. Tiger Woods has that and it will be hard to dethrone him.

Tupac's 40th Birthday : When We Die Too Young

Being born with less

I must confess

Only adds on to the stress

Two gunshots to my homie’s head

Died in his vest

Shot him to death

and left him bleeding for his family to see

I pass his casket

Gently ask him

Is there heaven for G's?

Tupac Shakur would have been 40 years old today. After seeing what was posted on Twitter and Facebook leading up to today there’s definitely a reverence for the man and his legacy. I don’t have an issue with that. I admired his music myself and have quoted him on this blog several times. As years go by I see his life differently than I did when I was younger and he was bringing all of that energy through my headphones. I just keep wondering if he would still be smoking blunts and screaming thug life at 40 or would that be a distant memory.

Age changes most people. Even if it doesn’t correct all of the misguided things you believed when you were younger it at least slows you down enough where you don't act them out. I know a lot of cats that went hard in the streets who have settled down over time. The challenge these days is getting to that point. The thing about Tupac that a lot of people don’t recognize because he acted so crazy sometimes was that his intellect and charisma was so great that by now he probably would have been leading some kind of renaissance for young men to change their ways. That’s how I have always felt about him and it made his death more tragic as the years go by. When I hear his music now I think of all the other young men who have died too early for reasons not worth dying for and I wonder how many of them would have changed if they just would have made it to their 30’s. As it stands we have too many men that didn't make it to 25 where adult life and the reality of the world starts to become a little clearer.

I think if more of those men would have survived they could help us put this violence thing in the proper perspective and slowed it down. Maybe the message would be different if there was more proof that circumstances can change as you get older. Our momentum has swung in the complete opposite direction since Tupac and Biggie were killed. Black men are still getting killed for real reason on the streets across America and there’s no real end in sight. Rappers haven’t gotten any more responsible. They still beef about crazy things and now guys who weren’t even bad guys in real life take names of infamous drug dealers and gangsters for their stage names. Men we should vilify for helping destroy our community have become mainstream symbols and in some cases role models and sex symbols.

I don’t really know if Tupac could have changed all of this from happening but it would have been great if he was here to find out. As it stands now he is a symbol of all the wasted talent and untapped potential that’s been left to bleed on the streets. That makes his birthday a pretty sad event when you think about it. Tupac once asked the question if there was heaven for G’s. If the answer was yes it’s getting pretty crowded.

The Hospital That's Coming Soon...or Maybe Not

I was going to name this post “All the things we could do with all the land we cleared in the middle of the city for a hospital that only needs half of the size.” That wouldn’t be right to do at this time because maybe the original plan from LSU gets done. I highly doubt that at this point because it looks like Tulane, David Vitter, and the shadow government have stepped in and found a way to get their share of the money with the governor’s blessing. It’s amazing how the governor can change his mind about certain topics depending on who’s in opposition to his original opinion. None of this is surprising to me.

Somehow we took a plan that was going to transform the city and create so many jobs and turned it into buying all of Tulane’s old hospital buildings and one of them isn’t even in the city. What happened to all the push to have everything being new? If that’s the case we could have just fixed all the old hospital buildings around the city and had them opened by now.

I don’t have the energy to be worried about things the state and shadow government does. Their agenda has been apparent since the storm. All you have to do is drive around and see that. I am disappointed with the city’s leadership for getting caught up in the middle of struggle between powerbrokers over money. I don’t think a house should have been moved, or a building torn down before there was a concrete plan in place. We could have waited and just cleared whatever space was needed after Tulane got their cut of the money and we knew what was going to be built. It wouldn’t have taken long to clear that space. All we do is tear down buildings in this city. We are getting as good at that as we are at jazz and fighting.

Happy Birthday To Me

I’m sitting outside today trying to enjoy my 37th birthday and the start of my vacation. When I left work yesterday I gave my coworker a list of things I was going to do this morning around the house before I started my birthday celebration. Well, I didn’t get to any of that because I went at it a little too hard doing my midnight celebration last night. I must be getting old and my recovery time is getting slow.

Every year around my birthday I always get real reflective. I didn’t really do that this year. That could mean that I have finally reached some kind of contentment with where I am in life so I didn’t have as much need to go over each and every decision I have made that got me to this point. I would like to think that’s the case but I don’t think it is. I think I was just too busy and tired to devote to my own self pity.

My only goals during these two weeks of vacation from work is to rest and relax as much as possible and bringing my blog back to a respectable level of posts. This once a week routine isn’t my style. I’m about to fix that as soon as possible. I just hope there’s something better to talk about than Mr. Ghetto’s Wal Mart bounce video and Anthony Weiner not knowing how to send messages on his Twitter account.

I am no frills kind of guy and I usually stick to the same things and brands I like. The only exception if my birthday when I will spend a little more on some high end bourbon and a higher quality cigar. I want one of them Cuban Maduros but I think they are still illegal. First I’ll eat, and then I’ll smoke the cigar, and then have a few cocktails before I go to sleep. That may sound like a very boring birthday to some but I’m saving the second line parade and music video for 40th birthday bash.

I want to give a shout out to all my friends, family, and especially my mommy and daddy. I’m out to enjoy the rest of my day.

Hanging In The Heat With A Bunch of Bulldogs

Yesterday I went to the J.S Clark alumni picnic. It felt like the temperature was 1000 degrees outside but everyone had a good time. I had been so tired from work that I didn’t want to go but my people talked me into it. I’m glad I did. It was a great turnout and I hope every school does the same thing with their alumni. It was cool seeing some folks I haven’t seen in years. I saw a lot of people I know from around the city that I had no idea went to the same school I did and I hadn’t seen any of them since Katrina.

I struggle with the conflict between the old New Orleans and the new one so many people seem to think we need. I go back and forth with how I feel about certain things like neighborhoods and schools. When I read about new ideas and plans for changes I always try to think of the right balance between progression and maintaining a sense of culture and community.

Many times I feel detached from a lot of things that make me who I am. Maybe it’s because I live in New Orleans East now and don’t spend as much time as I used to in my old stomping grounds. Maybe I have been beat down by news of violent crime and negative statistics that I mentally isolate myself just enough to not be associated with it. It could be that life is just too damn hectic these days to spend much time worrying about things like that and you have to keep pushing forward.

All of those things are true in some form or fashion but just like my friend who hasn’t lived in the city since we graduated and he went away to college said when we drove up to the picnic yesterday and he seen everyone out there; these are the kind of things that make you feel at home and happy. He was right about that. Sometimes when things get hectic you just need to spend some time with your people and reminisce about the people and places that got you to this point. It’s always refreshing to run into someone you came up with and be happy when they are doing okay. That’s what I saw out there on the Riverview yesterday and that’s the New Orleans that means the most to me. I hope we never lose that aspect because then the spirit of the city is dead no matter how nice the new buildings look.

The Weary Worker Blues

The work grind has been pretty hectic for yours truly. I’ve been on the “do more with less” agenda for a minute and it’s starting to take its toll. Since I am the kind of person that likes to make life even more hectic that it already it, I went and accepted an evening job a few nights a week for a short amount of time. That was probably not a good idea with school being in at the time but you do what you have to do to pay the bills. The evening gig is actually a good change of pace from the daytime because I am teaching some ladies how to use Microsoft Office and basic computer skills. If I had a few more weeks with them I would make them start a blog so they could post how great of a teacher I am. Of course I am too modest to make them do it I would just sit back and let them come to that conclusion on their own.

My day time job isn’t feeling like that at the moment. I’m having an internal conflict. Lately I feel like I am not handling the balancing act between being competent and admitting limitations very well. There’s a delicate balance between the people you work with thinking you can handle everything with no problem or thinking you just can’t cut the mustard.

In my mind if I kept bringing up the fact that we are short handed and handling way more information, people, and deadlines than our current staff can maintain, the powers that be would start thinking that maybe they needed someone else who wouldn’t be falling apart and complaining all the time. In these times no one is that gung ho about spending extra money so the winners are going to be the people who make it seem like they can handle everything no matter what the manpower is. I’ve been that person but it’s wearing me out lately.

The side effect to being that guy who tries to make everything seem possible to accomplish is that eventually the higher-ups take you for granted. They just keep piling on more and more and demanding more and more because you smile in the face of pressure so they think it’s no big deal. Everyone is so used to you just handling everything that when you don’t or voice any disagreement with how things are working out it seems like you are the one who’s being unreasonable.

That’s been my position for awhile now. Whatever you have in mind to get done just bring it on and I and my people will handle it. We’ve handled it all but we are starting to get a little beat down and it’s getting harder and harder to handle everything. We could use some help and I have expressed that. My biggest issue is that how I got to this position keeps me form ever admitting I can’t handle anything. I’m not a highly pedigreed cat with a bunch of letters behind my email signature. I’m a blue collar dude who found himself in the white color world because of my grind, work ethic and personality. I’m doing as well as I ever have and since I am so scared of going backwards I don’t say much. I just put my head down and work. That's not always good because when you do say something everyone thinks you have gone crazy.

I need to stop that and let the personal ownership of everything go. I have four more weeks of vacation then I am supposed to have because I never let go of the job. I better admit a bit of defeat and let go of some of this responsibility for I end up having a moment where keeping it real goes wrong. I think it's time to take a few weeks off and work on my new hobby of gardening. I'm trying to get my cantaloupes to grow.

Rest in peace...

Sitting On My Porch Part Sixty Six : The Flood Stage Edition

I just left a nice even at KIPP Central City Primary school to celebrate the first year of the CP3 Afterschool Zone. It’s a good program and the kids had fun. Chris Paul and his family are very down to earth people. I’m going to miss them when he signs with a big market team. Once I got home I turned on the television and started checking out some of the New Orleans Voodoo arena football game. I was happy to be at the event this evening and to see the Voodoo playing at home because that let me know there is no impending doom from the rising river. I don’t think Chris Paul and his family would be hanging uptown in danger.

Since the river started rising I have learned that the word flood is a trigger to wake up a lot of post traumatic stress. Some of my friends even asked me where I was evacuating to. I’m not tripping like that. I am 99.9 percent sure we are safe and sound thanks to the levees and spillways. I have to say however that the .1 percent of me that is unsure is so magnified after Katrina that I have been checking news updates every 15 minutes just to make sure that nothing has changed. I’m mad at myself for doing it but I can’t help it. If I am going to live in New Orleans for the rest of my life like I plan to I am going to have to trust the Corps of Engineers ability to protect me and my property from water. If I can’t get to that point then I need to move. I will give them credit for putting in a lot of work the last few years. I think we are a lot safer than we were on August 28, 2005 and I hope that in the next 100 years nothing happens that puts that to the test.

This weekend the Corps of Engineers is going to open the Morganza Spillway which will relieve pressure on the levees in Baton Rouge and New Orleans but give us all guilt when thousands of people near the Atchafalaya River are flooded. There's no such thing as a good scenario when it comes to rising water.

One of the most disappointing things about everyone being paranoid about the river rising is that the City Hall bribery trial isn’t getting the proper shock and awe it deserves after this week’s testimony. I hope that’s the reason you can’t find the story on most of our local news websites front page. I hope it’s not because of the fact the people in question are well connected and their skin tone doesn’t match the criminal element a lot of people in these parts are willing to embrace. I’m going to be positive and blame it on the river. Dambala was at the trial and it looks like he had a good time. As huge Soprano’s fan I had to wonder that if Tony, Paulie, and Silvio hadn’t shot Big Pussy on that boat for being an informant and dumped his body in the ocean his testimony would have sounded a lot like Greg Meffert’s. When I read about him and his boys using my tax dollars to act out a scene from a Cash Money Record video all I could do was shake my head in disgust. You only get to the level of spending public money they did when you have absolutely no fear of retribution.

There’s a huge part of me that hopes when the move on Ray Nagin starts someone finds a offshore account with a few million dollars in it. I have been one of the few bloggers to defend the former mayor so I don’t want him to be a crook at all. I just hope he didn’t put his name and reputation on the line for landscaping at his home and vacations that he had enough money to pay for himself. A trip to Hawaii is how you corrupt a regular working man like me. It should take at least seven figures to corrupt a successful business man like Ray Nagin. He’s going to look worse than Bill Jefferson if that’s all he got out of the deal.

In the last few years there’s been a lot of discussion about leadership in the area centered on race. I think trials like Mark St. Pierre’s should end some of that and bring us closer together. Mayor Landrieu won almost every black precinct in the city partly because of the fact the brother in office before him was tripping. Plus, when you look at the people who have fallen in the last few years for corruption across the metro area, I think we can call the contest to prove who’s the most dishonest a tie and move on.

There were some conservatives who objected to President Obama inviting Common to the White House for a poetry reading. A few people even called him a thug. I guess when all else fails when you are trying to scare America pick on the rapper. If Common is a thug every guy I know is a thug because the thug threshold is very low. I’m going to dedicate this Common song to Sarah Palin and Karl Rove. If either one of them can write anything this creative I will walk right through the middle of the hood with a Sarah Palin t-shirt.

Repost: The New Face of Corruption and Watching For The Double Standard

On November 6, 2009 I wrote a blog post about Greg Meffert and the new face of city corruption. Since the City Hall bribery trial of Mark St. Pierre started today I figured it was a good time to repost my feeling and get everybody back into the spirit of ending corruption.

Before you read these old words I want to say something about race, corruption and the perception of people. For a man that bribed his way to millions of tax payer dollars the picture of Mark St. Pierre in today’s paper is kind of small. He made money on the scale of Stan Pampy Barre and there was an entire section the Sunday paper dedicated to him when he went to trial. In the last few weeks there have been a few issues with members of our police force making money off of taxpayers with questionable business dealings concerning traffic camera tickets. Chief Serpas was trying to figure out a way to get out of the situation without throwing his friends under the bus. The mayor stepped in and suspended Commander Edward Hosli and the Director of Public Works Robert Mendoza.

From my vantage point the mayor had two reasons to do this. The first is he’s the leader of the city and the buck stops with him. He doesn’t have to sit around and wait for other people to act. He showed leadership in stepping in. The other reason is the thing that many people aren’t going to talk about. For the last few years of Mayor Nagin’s term the former Chief Warren Riley was treated down right horrible and had some nasty things said about him on radio, in blogs, and other platforms. Some of it was personal and out of bounds but it was okay because he worked for Mayor Nagin and the murder rate was high. I could only imagine if the traffic ticket hookup had been discovered under Chief Riley and the officers running it just so happen to be his close personal friends. People would have demanded he resign as well as all of his friends and any officers who were working for him.

These are the kind of things black people talk about among themselves but since we don’t control the media that angle doesn’t get covered. Mitch Landrieu knows that and that’s why saved the chief by stepping in. You can’t bring a city together with two sets of rules.

It doesn’t matter about the race or ethnicity of a person when news breaks of a corruption indictment in New Orleans. My reaction is always the same. I get sad because I think of what we could have done with whatever money or opportunity that was wasted to pull off whatever the scam was. Did we even need crime cameras in the first place? What could the Recreation Department have done with at least half of that money? I guess it’s too late to worry about that. I still think that any news story concerning crime that comes out of this city does damage because no one sees it as a clean up. Everyone sees it as a reminder of just how crooked we are. With that in mind, I feel like it’s time to go ahead and point out that the current face of corruption in New Orleans just so happens to be white.

I realize Nagin is the mayor and he is famous for making the Chocolate City comment that stirred up so much emotion. The fact of the matter is that when it comes to corruption and dealing under the table the city is more of a vanilla and chocolate swirl. Maybe this case will make corruption just a New Orleans issue instead of a black against white issue. Maybe this will make Jim Letten look fair because I happen to be one person that wants him to stay in office as a warning to potential hustlers. Maybe Mr. Meffert will turn over some evidence against the mayor and satisfy the blood thirsty mob that won’t sleep until they see him get arrested. Maybe he won’t because he doesn’t have anything and the only thing Mayor Nagin is guilty of is falling asleep at the wheel while his boy got paid. Whatever happens we need to look at this as tying up lose ends of the past so we can move forward.

Now, there is one thing that can bring the race card back into play. A 63 count indictment is nothing to sneeze at. Mr. Meffert and his wife got hundreds of thousands of dollars from this plan. I’m thinking that if Oliver Thomas has been in prison for since 2007 and serving 37 months for only 15,000, then if Greg Meffert is found guilty he has to at least get a sentence five times that amount. If Oliver Thomas does three years and Greg Meffert gets probation or any kind of soft treatment then I am going to pull out my race card and throw it on the table because that will be the right card to play in my opinion. I don’t think I will have to do that because I believe Mr. Letten is going to set an example with this case. That’s going to be a great thing if it can stop everyone from trying this kind of thing again.

Monday mornings are always the worst time of the week. It takes a minute to get going. Nevertheless I am feeling alright today. Yesterday was a good Mother’s Day despite the fact that mom lives in another city now. In the post Katrina chapter of my life I honor her and the other women who raised me by honoring the mothers around me. I think I do a good job at that. I also got to hang out this weekend with my friends and that is always cool. It doesn’t happen a lot these days since we got older and started going in different paths. Too bad we spent a lot of that time watching the Lakers get destroyed by Dallas. I guess everything can’t be perfect.

I’m ready for the week ahead. Hopefully nothing too serious happens while I work my way through all the other stuff that’s on my mind. I’ll consider it a good week if there’s minimal flooding of people’s homes because of the river, there are no murders for one week in the city and no one in the police department gets suspended of fired. I would add winning the Powerball so I could quit working and buy my parent’s a mansion but the other three things I named are already lofty so I better be reasonable.